saying NO again.

another painful email sent. ARGH i can go crazy with this ranking shit.

saying NO is a skill.

i sent a painful email today. it was the most devastating click on the send button ever. having to reject a job offer from birmingham when i had no other black and white contract on my hand yet, is not exactly what i expected to do. why did i go all the way to sit for all the exams when i would say NO at the end.

and i have to say NO to another great trainer who has been tryin to get in touch. and he is such a lovely person.

i hope these are not too much to pay for just to go to a practice u think u will fit into well, and a trainer u think is keen and enthusiastic. i hope in life, u can realli trust.

pray. pray. pray.

Cheated.

I feel so cheated. It's LIKE a guy telling u I LOVE YOU, then turned away and told another gal I LOVE YOU SO MUCH and kissed her on the lips and held her in his arms.

And you're left shocked and confused.

Don't breach my trust. u don get another chance.