R-themed party; Robin's party!

dis was like one of the coolest birthday party ever.



since it was for Robin, he decided the party should b themed R. wadever started with R.



on arrival, there were lots of R-related guests walking around. n the birthday boy, was dressed as the superhero Robin.

sexy Rabbit.

seductive Rock chick.

somone came in with Roller skates. how cool.


the cutest Robber on earth =)



the Roman ruled!



Robin came to rescue. back off Romans!



happily flying with hero Robin.

and the highlight of the party was the pinata. it is a mexican culture during occasion to smash the pinata and get the sweets in there.





Fiona was blindfolded and started to smash like crazy! everyone was running for their lives.




















then it was my turn! Robin was whispering to me " ai ling u only get one swing ok" but i didnt care. smashed realli happily keke.

Robin's turn! smash smash smash!!!!!! i was laughin my ass off. i love pinata!



















robin's smashing! so so hilarious.






sweets finally!!!!




cake n song moment. happy birthday Robin!

such a cool blue police birthday cake.

R-party. Real Rock stuff. happy 21st birthday Robin!

ChAp GoR Meh

ok so the dentists wanted to do somtin for chap gor meh. n so we did. in rach's place. cooking again.









n it was like a really really authentic chinese dinner. it made u salivate so so much. it made u get your bowl n chopsticks ready before u were allowed to touch the food. at least i got mine ready like realli realli early.

long-awaited eating-time!!!!!!!

'tang yuen' time! so sweet n nice. chinese are realli food experts.

n we gave farah a birthday surprise! big gal now farah 23!

a huge warm hug for thx =) " thank you so so much thank you ai ling!"

blessings for the birthday gal. youth is so beautiful. dentists family.

a day of happiness. warmth and laughters. hours of bonding wakaka rach!

Princess.

i believe in karma. i really do. i believe if u hurt someone, even accidentally, u will be hurt in the end too. it is just a matter of time. i believe that one day u may be loved like a princess, cuddled like a baby; but as time slips through, all these may disappear and u may be left in despair, hankering for what u were once given, wondering why things change and attempting to unchange the change.

all too often, when u try, the harder u push, the uglier things go. n it makes u look silly and childish n inconsiderate. all of a sudden, u are nothing like an adorable princess, u are just a spoiled brat with great level of sensitivities and low degree of tolerance. u may even be told that things change because u change. at times u will hate yourself for caring too much. if u dont give a damn, it wont even tickle a bit of your emotion. it wont b that hard on your part.

maybe it is just better to believe change is inevitable. maybe it is wiser if u take change easy. otherwise, what else can u do when u cant fight this natural process of life?

who doesnt want to be a princess? n if u were ever one once, it is tough to leave the palace, it will scratch your heart to put away the nice dresses and flowery bed and undivided attention. whatever it is, even if u were promised again n again that u would be loved forever, that u would be protected by angels; change persists. new princess may replace u. u may still have the princess title, but u may have to bear with the sharing of care and pampering.

and the tears of princess may flow. maybe no one cares anymore. but it may flow, till it stops. till the princess forgets she was once a princess.

LOSS.

loss is painful.

the pain of losing someone u love is excruciating. it is the pain u will not be able to describe at all. the pain no one else can understand. the pain not a little bit at all relieved by people saying 'i am so sorry'. the pain so intense u cant even shed away a gram of it with tears. the pain that is so chronic that it will always be there; it may be away for some time, but it will always come back.

so, u cry, u grieve, u think u lose the world, for the one u lose was ever the most important thing in your whole entire world before. and suddenly, gone.

however, time helps. soon enough, u will realize your tears only reminds u more of your loss. u will decide u cant go on with life all the time with your dehydrated eyes, your hurt heart, your soulless body.

time may not wipe away the loss, but it helps to heal the cut into a scar. maybe the cut is deep, maybe it is so huge that it will take a while for the granulation tissues to be replaced by the firm tough scar tissues; but scar will form eventually. the limiting factor is just u; if u are always clinging on to the loss, maybe time is not a universal remedy. if u don let go, maybe the cut will just proceed into such a chronic stage, where the healing and inflammation fight each other. and if u continue to give in to your grief, infection may take place, and it may spread and gives u septicemia.

so, learn to accept. loss is painful, but it reminds u to treasure what u still have around u. it reminds u that life is short. it reminds u that what u do when the person is around is far more important than tearing after the person is gone.

so, learn to grow up. there are things beyond our control. there are things, horrible things we wish will never happen at all; but they just will. learn to realize that tears may be a temporary painkiller, but it has the risk of addiction. learn to increase your pain threshold instead of abusing your supply of painkillers.

u may cry. just remember to pick yourself up afterwards. i believe that this pain, no one can help u in any way unless u manage it yourself.

the scar may remind u of your loss. it will always be there. it just doesnt matter anymore. u healed. u have fought the fear of loss.

and the person u love will always be in a part of your heart. and the person will be happy too if he ever knows u are living well, happily for yourself, and for the people u love.

woohooo. good ending to my week.

yay. today was assigned to oral surgery clinic instead of consult. soooooooooo exciting!

n the most exciting part is---- ai ling extracted a lower right second molar herself!!!! managed to remove the molar with Coupland 1, 2 and 3. no forceps. reading a textbook is just nothing like doing it on a real patient. god, now i figure out the physics of levering in using the elevators. they realli do work so well!!

well, the patient was happy with the whole thing. the tutor, Gormally decided to refer him to the X-ray department because there were lots of other grossly carious teeth present. n guess what, the patient came back afterwards for review and he was given a treatment plan to have a total of 8 teeth extracted in the next appointment.

so the moral of the story--- take care of yr teeth. otherwise, u still have another option to opt for, cause i am kinda in love with extracting teeth now. maybe a discount for you next time too.

ai ling's hard day before the good days.

fuh. so i did my JOSC test (some drilling and cavity preparation) this morning, apart from not knowing the results yet, i am relieved. finally. MO prep on upper left five, we were lucky in a way that we were not asked to do on the upper six or seven, still, the challenge was there. occlusally convergent, rounded internal angle, 90degree cavosuface angle and blah blah blah. did it finally.



then it was oral surgery consult. well i prefer clinic personally. u know, doing injections and extractions and seeing the tutors performing the bloody fleshy flap raise and apicectomy are far more exciting than doing medical and dental history taking. so so repetitive. u just need to go on asking the patients, you have any allergies? taking any medications? heart problems at all? diabetes? rheumatic fever? u smoke? u drink? and the list of questions go on and on. and the nurse will keep dumping files to you, and you will have to carry out the same things all over again the minute u are relieved that u finish the patient in hand.



it was worse today since one of the tutors was on leave. and the clinic was so busy with just one tutor supervising all of us. right, so the nurse dumped me a case again. and hello, on the file it wrote SCLERODERMA. heyy, i mean SCLERODERMA. SCLERODERMA!!!!!! i didn't have any idea what was that. the referral letter described a lot of conditions related to it. facial bone deficiencies, mobile teeth, joint complications; ok all i mean is, i think i should have someone telling me what was that before i actually had to deal with the patient so that i knew at least something about the patient. well, all i could see was Dr Oliver running around the clinic handling patients, and the nurse kept telling me she would inform me when Dr Oliver was available, but he never was. so i did the history taking without a clue what was scleroderma. the moment i called in the patient, i was thinking "god i need help". i mean, she didnt not look physically fit to me. and i was thinking maybe the tutor should really take care of the case.



she was on the wheelchair when i did the procedure. the medical history part. judging by vision i kinda told myself i should have a lot to write on my notes. and since she was just sent to the oral surgery, no previous notes was there for me to refer to. but to my surprise she seemed to be describing herself such healthier than i thought. well i thought i should just write down what she said. i was waiting for Dr Oliver to come when the patient was complaining she couldnt wait any longer, that she would pass out any moment. -_-" then this another tutor came in and took over the case. and the essence of the story is here, when the tutor double-checked with the patient, she suddenly remembered she had diabetes and psoriasis and osteoporosis and few additions on the medication list as well. well, the tutor was giving me a "what?!" face. and the dental hygienist student who had been there observing was giving me the "how could she suddenly remember all these?!" face. and i was just having the "i am going to die" face.



so, the amount of additions made the tutor make another record. well he actually did the whole thing again. at the end of the session i was so so tired. and the tutor asked me what went wrong. i was speechless. and the dental hygienist student was giving me this "tell him!" face.



well. i am here to learn. so my mistakes. anyway, a hard week gone. and i am having a 3-day weekend and my sis is coming to Manchester tomorrow and we are going to have dimsum and a movie and do some shopping in the town. it will be a good weekend.



oh another good news! ida is giving birth to her twins soon! end of this month. i am really looking forward to it!

impregum... what is it actually???

Impregum.

oh my god. so Mr harper has been giving me misleading info about impregum. it is not polyshulphide, it is polyether!!!!!!!

so, he kinda passed us over to the really good Dr martin A bcos he was having an errand to run(which is sort of great on my side). n it just struck me that i had been keeping the concept wrong all this while when he said impregum is polyether.

anyway, he made the impression(as good as he could get) n Brian is off to the jaw registration stage for next appointment! thank god, i was like laughing my ass off when my clinical partner ran the impregum all over Brian' face. i mean, it was not professional, but i just couldnt stop my laughing gas. wakakakak.

scary but got to do it.

had another busy pros day. my patient came in for a review. there was an ulcer on the lingual area so i had to do a bit of trimming on the overextended area. then Brian came. fuhhhh... then my next patient is a partial denture case!!! tata complete dentures.

secretly taking a snapshot of the pros clinic when no one is looking.