beauty of stockholm, sweden.

it was a reward to myself. it was a good one. Stockholm is so great. one of the best out of so many European countries.

i such love the old town, Gamla Stan. so beautiful. so cultural. so Europe. so ancient. so clean. so lovely. so cute. though a bit expensive, it was almost perfect.

a restaurant in old town. it was originally a prison; aged more than 600 years. i just love it so much. it was a cool basement. u must watch this video! (somehow i can't upload it huhu)

i had the must-try Swedish meatball in the loveliest restaurant. yummmmmy.

the Royal Palace was just a few steps away from the hostel i stayed. the guards were not like those in London. they moved quite a bit! those standing outside the White Palace in London wouldn't even move an inch. just so still. like they won't ever feel itchy or bored.

sunny day is the best background for pictures.

i was shocked to see the Nobel Museum, never knew that Alfred Nobel was from Sweden. it wasn't every much introduced in the maps and the entrance was ju st 4pounds. such a small museum. the tour guide from the museum said "this museum is about ideas, not objects." so there u go, SMALL. no cameras allowed. so no pictures here for u.

Stockholm city hall. the Alfred award dinner is held here every year, on the 9th December.

u don't have to be a Laurette to be in this place.

Vasa museum. the ship sank not very long after it started its sail. it was a huge piece.

it was the Swedish National Day eve. there were so many lorries carrying young girls who were screaming and shouting with bottles of alcohol for no reason. u just w ould wonder why were they so happy. just like those people back in Malaysia celebrating Hari Kebangsaan. c'mon you n i are not that patriotic but somehow some people just show extreme glee on that day. somehow.

Swedish version of MALAYSIA BOLEH!

then it was the National Day. flags were given everywhere for free. the old town was so so happening. so packed. i can't tell u enough how much i m in love with the old town.

IcE-BAr!!!!!!! it was like -5degree in there. so freezing cold. the bartender was really cute.

ICE.

ice-cream was ubiquitous in Stockholm, everyone was holding ice-cream as if they couldn't live without it. there was this old old aunty licking on the ice-cream like she loved it so much. i couldn't help but looked at her, it was just so cute!

Away from the beautiful old town, heading to the modern city of Stockholm.

The busiest park ever, Kungstradgarden.

I can't read Swedish, but this must be Malaysian satay!

WILD is beauty.

i love u Stockholm.

winter-summer-spring

exams finishedddddddddddddddd!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok since i havnt been blogging for like 8000years, i js wanna post something. just sometime really random.

weather has been odd these days. someone even told me that the world is going to end cause everything is really messed up nowadays. then i thought, if it is, please let me enjoy the summer first, cause i have had such a long long long year. the world shouldn't end just like that before i have some fun. if the world is going to end, i will fly to Egypt, buying the most expensive 1st class air ticket, seeing the pyramids, riding the camels, playing with the sand, and get really tanned. and when people comment about my darkness i will just say "who cares?". then i will fly back to my home to give my mum a hug n tell her i really love her a lot. n i will eat my fav laksa. n before i leave the UK, i will approach the dental nurses in the dental hospital, advising them to be a bit nicer to the dental students cause we shouldn't always take their shit for no reasons, and the old fragile patients shouldn't have to bear with their screaming and shouting.

ok, back to weather. it was freezing cold since October. then it was just nothing but cruel coldness. day got dark like at 3.30pm. so dreadful. every time u go out to do shopping, u will have to carry a ton of winter clothings with u. and u just feel so heavy. then we were wondering y no snow? hello snow is the only thing u can hope for in the winter. then it was April when u will expect a bit of warmth. than it snowed! hello. it snowed!!!!!


i have a slanting window. so the snow js looked like it was falling directly into my room. so beautiful.




then after a month, May. it was abruptly all sunny and bright and everything u js want so badly after the long long winter. the fair-skinned folks love the sun like nothing else. but then again, they have a limited supply of melanin, getting dark is not an issue. when u are applying sunblock, getting the biggest umbrella and the hugest sunglasses, these sun-lovers are trying to expose every inch of their skin to the sun. my British flatmate Rachel said she would really love to exchange UK weather with my Malaysian weather. but then again, things u cant get are always the better things. summer is a bit crazy here cause i cant actually find a fan anywhere. in Malaysia it is hot n humid, here it is just hot n hot n hot n dry. the best thing is, when u go shopping, u have no burden of carrying anything to keep u warm.

i took this photo on my way back from dental hospital. if my mum sees this photo, she will be saying, "are they mad?"


the ice-cream car is a hot spot in summer.



so it was like from winter straight to summer. and Noreen was asking, where is the spring? oh yea, where is it? the order is really a bit messed up isn't it?

then it is June the raining season. and oh my god the flowers that blossomed in the summer just suddenly disappear. this is really so weird. how is that possible. suddenly i miss the sun. so spring comes back?

tomorrow i am going to Sweden. after a long long month of horrifying exams. hopefully it is sunny n bright there. my 9th europe country.

the blue ribbon

someone sent me the blue ribbon. it made my day. it reminded me i am still somebody to someone at least. it made me think i am still important. that i would be thought of sometimes at least.

pass your ribbon to someone who deserves it. make someone happy. i am sure u will feel good too.

because you love me.

i was scanning on u-tube and saw this song. it brought back lots of things into my mind.

Celine Dion looked really into it when she sang. it's like she sang with her heart, and her look n eyes were like telling u she was really loved by someone. tat she was singing because there's someone for her to sing for.

because u love me. such a song for people in love. no, to be exact, people who just fall in love. when it first starts, everything is a lump of sugar. every word is like a jar of honey. every move is like a bouquet of roses. every minute apart is the emptiest moment u live just to wait for the next minute to b together. u feel like u r what u are because u are drowned in love. like what our handsome Jerry McGuire said to his gal, "u complete me". so sweet it melts your heart.

she sang with such emotion that i could feel the love. was she loved actually?

n i wonder would she sing with the same kind of passion when she had the biggest disappointment in the person who loved her so much, once upon a time.

such a song with such touching lyrics. it is definitely the best choice of song to b played when your relationship is blossoming. u feel that the song is just the perfect-fit piece of summary of yr love. "i was blessed because i was loved by you". how sweet. i am sure every single soul worships this song writer for putting such amazing romance into words. into such beautiful music.

what happens when time has its charge? when the person who loved u so much doesnt anymore? or not that much anymore? will u still like the song? or will you resent listening to that song again because it reminds u that u WERE loved, just that u AREN'T now, because it is whispering to you that it is a sweet memory but also the bitterness source now.


for all the time you stood by me.
won't u spend more time with me?
for all the truth that u made me see.
why do u lie?
for all the joy u brought to my life.
why do u always make me cry?
for all the wrongs that u made right.
why is everything my fault?
for every dream u made come true.
why don't u care about what i want?
for all the love i found in u.
do you still love me?
i'll b forever thankful baby.
i am so disappointed in u.
you're the one who held me up, never let me fall.
do you even care what's bothering me?
you're the one who saw me through, through it all.
why wont u understand me?
you were my strength when i was weak.
where are u when i need u the most?
you were my voice when i couldn't speak.
we are only silent or fighting.
you were my eyes when i couldn't see.
you are not even looking at me now.
you saw the best there was in me.
am i still the one for u?
lifted me up when i couldn't reach.
i m left all alone.
u gave me faith cause u believed.
it is hard to trust anymore.

i am everything i am, because you love me.
things changed. you just don't love me anymore...





the song is itself a sweet song, just that maybe it is not for u; it is just like Valentine's day, it will just remind the single-souls that they are alone when other people are celebrating their love, when cards and flowers and chocolate are sent to other houses, when a lot of another-halves are singing "because u love me" to their partners.

u may not feel the joy just yet, but someday it may come. even if it doesn't, u still deserve the love, at least from yourself.

may u find your McGuire someday.

R-themed party; Robin's party!

dis was like one of the coolest birthday party ever.



since it was for Robin, he decided the party should b themed R. wadever started with R.



on arrival, there were lots of R-related guests walking around. n the birthday boy, was dressed as the superhero Robin.

sexy Rabbit.

seductive Rock chick.

somone came in with Roller skates. how cool.


the cutest Robber on earth =)



the Roman ruled!



Robin came to rescue. back off Romans!



happily flying with hero Robin.

and the highlight of the party was the pinata. it is a mexican culture during occasion to smash the pinata and get the sweets in there.





Fiona was blindfolded and started to smash like crazy! everyone was running for their lives.




















then it was my turn! Robin was whispering to me " ai ling u only get one swing ok" but i didnt care. smashed realli happily keke.

Robin's turn! smash smash smash!!!!!! i was laughin my ass off. i love pinata!



















robin's smashing! so so hilarious.






sweets finally!!!!




cake n song moment. happy birthday Robin!

such a cool blue police birthday cake.

R-party. Real Rock stuff. happy 21st birthday Robin!

ChAp GoR Meh

ok so the dentists wanted to do somtin for chap gor meh. n so we did. in rach's place. cooking again.









n it was like a really really authentic chinese dinner. it made u salivate so so much. it made u get your bowl n chopsticks ready before u were allowed to touch the food. at least i got mine ready like realli realli early.

long-awaited eating-time!!!!!!!

'tang yuen' time! so sweet n nice. chinese are realli food experts.

n we gave farah a birthday surprise! big gal now farah 23!

a huge warm hug for thx =) " thank you so so much thank you ai ling!"

blessings for the birthday gal. youth is so beautiful. dentists family.

a day of happiness. warmth and laughters. hours of bonding wakaka rach!

Princess.

i believe in karma. i really do. i believe if u hurt someone, even accidentally, u will be hurt in the end too. it is just a matter of time. i believe that one day u may be loved like a princess, cuddled like a baby; but as time slips through, all these may disappear and u may be left in despair, hankering for what u were once given, wondering why things change and attempting to unchange the change.

all too often, when u try, the harder u push, the uglier things go. n it makes u look silly and childish n inconsiderate. all of a sudden, u are nothing like an adorable princess, u are just a spoiled brat with great level of sensitivities and low degree of tolerance. u may even be told that things change because u change. at times u will hate yourself for caring too much. if u dont give a damn, it wont even tickle a bit of your emotion. it wont b that hard on your part.

maybe it is just better to believe change is inevitable. maybe it is wiser if u take change easy. otherwise, what else can u do when u cant fight this natural process of life?

who doesnt want to be a princess? n if u were ever one once, it is tough to leave the palace, it will scratch your heart to put away the nice dresses and flowery bed and undivided attention. whatever it is, even if u were promised again n again that u would be loved forever, that u would be protected by angels; change persists. new princess may replace u. u may still have the princess title, but u may have to bear with the sharing of care and pampering.

and the tears of princess may flow. maybe no one cares anymore. but it may flow, till it stops. till the princess forgets she was once a princess.