姐今晚飞回国了。 这两个多星期的廉价假期虽不豪华，而且还得处处节省，但是个很具意义的旅程。
谢谢你的照顾，谢谢你为我洗衣烧饭煮菜。你虽不多话，但却为我减轻了烦恼。
谢谢你姐。
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
forgiveness.
i yelled today. for a small joke, i gave a big reaction with a big volume.
maybe somtimes there are things that u will never be able to forgive, not completely anyway. you may think u have put off the fire, but a light blow of wind can always ignite it and start the flame all over again.
you may not care anymo; but somhow u stil put urself bac into the past, and u can always feel the anger u felt once upon a time.
then u cool down and think, why does it stil bother you? have u not grown up since then?
forgiveness is a big thing, so big i am stil learning to carry it with me well.
maybe somtimes there are things that u will never be able to forgive, not completely anyway. you may think u have put off the fire, but a light blow of wind can always ignite it and start the flame all over again.
you may not care anymo; but somhow u stil put urself bac into the past, and u can always feel the anger u felt once upon a time.
then u cool down and think, why does it stil bother you? have u not grown up since then?
forgiveness is a big thing, so big i am stil learning to carry it with me well.
handsome.
my bro. we used to call him alan mao. or mao mao. i just think mr lim is so handsome. tall tanned and cool. a product of my genes. of cos it is a great product LOL
pangkor.
a 2-day-1-nite trip to pangkor island.
it was REAL ovenly hot. i felt like i was baking myself under the sun.
the island wasnt huge, the 6 of us squeezed into a rented iswara and went around the island.
ate a lot of sotong.
a short trip to a simple island, but some great time with the LIMs, a shame lim ai li couldnt make it!
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
阿嬤的話 ah ma eh ui
few days bac, one of my many estranged aunties came over for a brief visit, well actualli for a quick shower as the water supply in her area had been cut off for some reason.
she told us my grandma (ah ma) fell down from a chair a couple of days ago.
i have never been close to ah ma. we never realli talked and seldom meet each other. however, everytime i come back for summer holidays, my mom would ask me to at least visit her once. i have to say, im not a very good granddaughter-- i will only visit her once.
ah ma has not been on her feet for 6 years. everyday, she will be placed on a resting chair in the living room where she stares into the space for hours, and has no one to talk to. at night, when people are back from work and school, they will change her diapers, give her a shower and put her to sleep.
each time i see ah ma, she wil tel me, if i dont tel her who i am, she can never tel. no surprise realli, like i said, we were never close.
each time we start talking, ah ma's words are almost unstoppable. u can tel she is so lonely and desperate for somone to talk to. ah ma will usually start from asking me hows my life in england, then go on telling me about her grandchildren in the house like how many As they scored, how many are going to be doctors and how many are this and that. later, ah ma will start explaing her life, her empty life. she will tel me, each second she spends now seems like a whole long year, there are so many things she wants to do but cant possibly do anymore. then, later, ah ma wil start realating stories about her past, she would tel me about a dozen of people whom i have no idea about such as ah-cai-sou (the lady that sells vege) who cursed her husband.
i would listen and always give a smile and a nod. i know all she needs is just somone there to listen to her. however, many time i hav to try so hard to fight my physiological response after a few hours of ah-ma-stories. i hav to try to hide my yawning and sleepy face and squeeze every tiny bit of energy left in me to put up a i-am-very-interested face.
my mom would give som money to ah ma before we leave. looking at this, im worried that one day, the lady lying in the bed would be my mom, and i would be the daughter who can only offer some money and a little bit of time to her when she is tat lonely. i hope tat day wil not come too soon.
mama, i wish u a long healthy happy life.
she told us my grandma (ah ma) fell down from a chair a couple of days ago.
i have never been close to ah ma. we never realli talked and seldom meet each other. however, everytime i come back for summer holidays, my mom would ask me to at least visit her once. i have to say, im not a very good granddaughter-- i will only visit her once.
ah ma has not been on her feet for 6 years. everyday, she will be placed on a resting chair in the living room where she stares into the space for hours, and has no one to talk to. at night, when people are back from work and school, they will change her diapers, give her a shower and put her to sleep.
each time i see ah ma, she wil tel me, if i dont tel her who i am, she can never tel. no surprise realli, like i said, we were never close.
each time we start talking, ah ma's words are almost unstoppable. u can tel she is so lonely and desperate for somone to talk to. ah ma will usually start from asking me hows my life in england, then go on telling me about her grandchildren in the house like how many As they scored, how many are going to be doctors and how many are this and that. later, ah ma will start explaing her life, her empty life. she will tel me, each second she spends now seems like a whole long year, there are so many things she wants to do but cant possibly do anymore. then, later, ah ma wil start realating stories about her past, she would tel me about a dozen of people whom i have no idea about such as ah-cai-sou (the lady that sells vege) who cursed her husband.
i would listen and always give a smile and a nod. i know all she needs is just somone there to listen to her. however, many time i hav to try so hard to fight my physiological response after a few hours of ah-ma-stories. i hav to try to hide my yawning and sleepy face and squeeze every tiny bit of energy left in me to put up a i-am-very-interested face.
my mom would give som money to ah ma before we leave. looking at this, im worried that one day, the lady lying in the bed would be my mom, and i would be the daughter who can only offer some money and a little bit of time to her when she is tat lonely. i hope tat day wil not come too soon.
mama, i wish u a long healthy happy life.
Friday, April 30, 2010
bye bye.
tonight my buddy beetee koay left the UK for good.
i have to say. its so depressing to have a fren less. a fren of so many things-- a wonderful audience. a good banker. an amazing mango provider. a reliable tour guide. a walking alarm clock. a starbucks and taiwu and movie sponsor. a free-of-charge-and-always-ready camera man. a laksa companion. a trustworthy fren. a rare fren from the same kampung whom i can share the same jokes with and speak hokkien very loudly to.
eventho u always always tease me, emphasising my imperfections and overlooking all my near-to-perfection sides, u r still a very very good fren koay beetee.
i have to say. its so depressing to have a fren less. a fren of so many things-- a wonderful audience. a good banker. an amazing mango provider. a reliable tour guide. a walking alarm clock. a starbucks and taiwu and movie sponsor. a free-of-charge-and-always-ready camera man. a laksa companion. a trustworthy fren. a rare fren from the same kampung whom i can share the same jokes with and speak hokkien very loudly to.
eventho u always always tease me, emphasising my imperfections and overlooking all my near-to-perfection sides, u r still a very very good fren koay beetee.
thank u for all ur help in this foreign land. the many stupid jokes which i laughed till i cried, realli brightened up days.
i wish u a wonderful life. please get very very rich!!!!
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