too much too much.

this is one of those times again.

"too much of everything can make you sick". cheryl cole says.

and i guess i am having too much of dentistry. coursework, audit, presentation cases, patient schedule arrangements, labwork arrangement and job applications. how much more can i take before i really grow sick of this whole dentistry thing.

sometimes i wake up thinking, this better worths it. worth every bit of my worries, my anxiety and my slight depression inclination.

a break is a good idea. except datelines will never wait.

the snow. the love.

the snow. it has been around for quite some time now. the snow brings a lot to my mind, from it falls, it builds up on every path in the city, it freezes into ice, it mashes with the dirt, to when it becomes so annoyingly messy n then disappears to give way to the new season.

when the weather forecast says the snow will be near, everyone cannot be more excited to welcome the flakes, even if it will be crazily cold, even if it will be disrupting the transport, even if it will be so heavy everyone will be locked in home, the fact is, it is still pretty, and it is something rare, something that does not happen everyday.

then the first pour of snow falls. the view of flakes flying in the air is breath-taking. you can just stare into the sky a whole day like you will never get bored with it.

then the snow builds up. you decide you should do a bit more now than staring. you go out into the snow to do snowmans, to play snow fight, to lie down in the inches of snow. it is tiring, it is time-consuming; but it is exciting and it gives you the adrenaline rush you need to spice up your life. you know the next day every inch of muscle will ache but you still give it all out when you are in the snow. the muscle will heal, but the snow, once it is gone, it is gone.

then the snow stops falling. the lovely flakes eventually freeze into ice. the ice coats every path that you need to walk every single day. then you get unhappy with the slippery journey, with the effort to chose the right shoes even just to walk to the cash machine 3mitres away, with the caution on every step to stop you from falling down. and if you really trip yourself and fall, you mourn about the stupid ice and start to forget how pretty it was once upon a time.

then the temperature rises, transports and schools are running again. the footsteps mashes the snow with the dirt. all of a sudden, something that looked so pure and clean at one point suddenly turns into a mess. the whole place just looks so unpleasant. at this point, you will not even think about snowman or even missing to have one done.

then the snow will melt away slowly, bit by bit everyday, until one point you cant see a trace of it. and then you are all ready to welcome the new, warmer season of the year.

doesn't it all sound like a relationship?

when it is blooming, it is all exciting and unpredictable like the weather forecast.

then it starts, it is all pretty --just like the falling snowflakes.

then the relationship goes further, you decide to do something more for each other, even when you know it is tiring and it takes time -- just like building a snowman and having a snowfight.

then as you get closer, you seem to know each other better, and you start to find out the imperfections of each other, so you fight and you fall out, you get sick of the whole thing --just like walking on the slippery path and falling down hard.

then as time passes, you fight more and more. you think that person is not the lovely person you first met and you just wonder how this whole thing started in the first place -- just like the mashed snow and dirt.

then you decide it is probably about time to end the mess and start overall again. if this whole thing does not bring joy anymore, there is probably no point in carrying on --just like when we all have built our snowmans, we are more than happy to say hi to the warmer, sunnier spring.

we probably are aware of all the stages we will go through, but for every snow to come, we will all still have the same cycle of emotions from the excited phase again even when we know it may be not last long. this is the beauty of life. the slippery paths and the unpleasant mashed filthy snow will never rip off the inherent beauty of the snow. a relationship may be all silly and tiring, but the beauty of can be so fulfilling, probably more than what the snow can give you, if you find the right person.

may everyone be blessed. a safe winter and a lovely love life.

a white manchester. a white winter.

the whole great britain has been snowing over the winter. and this is so weird. my four years here, the snow had never been this thick. so thick that thousands of schools needed to be cancelled across the country. and even the whole uni was closed in manchester. i have to say, i am really in love with this snow thing. manchester has never looked so pretty before. the whole place is like covered with a thick white blanket.

snowy winter is all about snowmansss. in the park u often see wadever size u want.

snow fighting is realli good for losing weight. soaked and exhausted but i totally loved the snow.

please go on snowing. i love the sound of the snow flakes fallin on my window. i love waking up to see everything white. i love seeing everyone getting so excited making the snowmans. i love how the snow gets every class cancelled lol.

what's next?

i am sitting here in front of wani's laptop writing this blog. feeling pathetic and confused.

everything seems to break. it started off by me dropping my brand new nokia E71 into water in the summer in malaysia. then i kinda broke the camera in australia.

then one thing after another broke after i came back to manchester. first of all i realised my anatomy skull and webcam went missing (i must had misplaced them while moving before leaving for malaysia). then my wardrobe collapsed. then the rack. then the full length mirror fell and broke into pieces (and they are still lying on the floor waiting for me to clear up when i am in my mood). then my heater stopped working when it is the coldest time of the year, at the middle of winter. then my watch strips broke which i didnt even have a clue how it happened in tat house party.

ok u probably think tat sucks enough rite? no, cause i came back from the house party last nite and found out my laptop decided to end its life without even saying bye to me. LORD.

i am too broke for all things to go wrong at the same time. like realli broke. i cant help but wondering what's the next thing tat will follow the series? what else in my room will break JUST LIKE THAT.

oh please. i know im clumsy. and oli says i never take care of my own things. even my ipod is looking like shit now. but please i will b abit nicer to them. stop saying goodbye to me!

i hope nothing is next. not until i graduate.

seeing new zealand my way -- auckland -- bungy jumping!!!

this was like one of the best birthday presents ever. a bungy jump! i had never thought i would do it but if u onli live once then y not. thank you loutou!

since yaya had to go to class in the morning i had to entertain myself. i bungy jumped at auckland harbour bridge! all alone lol.

i was the lightest in the group so they made me jump last. it was all ok when the guys were doing it so i tot i was goin to be fine. then guess wad the gal right before me burst out crying when she was supposed to jump. i was like okayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy tat freaked me out a bit.

n since i was all alone i couldnt realli hav the chance to express any emotions. so i kinda looked pretty calm when they were tying me up. and the staff was asking "heyy r u scared yet?" i was like hellllllo of cos!

the guy kept askin me to go to the very edge of the platform. i would say the few seconds when u are standing up there is the scariest moment of all. u feel like u will be dropping from the edge any moment, and u have to make yourself jump when the guy says 5 4 3 2 1 JUMP, and u may just give up and waive all the money.

the moment u jump down, omg its such such a freefall. u feel like u r goin to die. its like u can hold on to nothing and u will js keep on falling. and then the fall stops and u will bounce back up, almost all the way before u fall again. the bouncing back part was realli scary for me too.

but then when the string came to a halt, u feel like u hav made such a big achievement. u will feel like u can almost do anything else on earth =) it was a great high feeling tat maybe doesnt last too long, but the euphoria was unbelievable. people go try it!!!!!!!!!!!! a must-try!

seeing new zealand my way - auckland

auckland. quite a quiet city. not a place to do exciting trendy shopping but u will lov it if u r into vintage stuff. a lot of green. and i love the pink.


after 4 years!!!! finally met my dear yaya in auckland!!! she is still as beautiful and adorable as ever. we properly screamed when i reached her doorstep. oh my god i miss you! althought the next thing u told me wasnt realli the most favorite thing i wanna hear on a holiday. look at the mess below u will get it.


so yaya said "ai ling sorry lah we have to move out in two days. so u hav to giv us a hand at night ya" i almost fainted. i hate moving house!!!!! but then since it was free lodging so ok im not complaining more.




we took a ferry ride to reach a small island, the davenport. it was a small town. yaya n i were walking up mount victoria before a stranger stopped his car to offer a ride. so, PLEASE LISTEN, if ur mom tells u not to get into a stranger's car, u just dont do it. she is nagging for your very own good i can assure u. below was a story of how a nice helpful stranger who turned into a weird stalker.


in the car. weird things going to happen.

so we tot, the man looked pretty friendly. n there was a japanese gal in the car. he must b alrite. so we hopped onto the car. and guess wad when we finished looking around on mount victoria and about to walk down ourselves he offered to bring us to another mount and we were stupid enough to not refuse. and there he brought us into a tunnel and began to show us some pics on his camera, mumbling that those were his tenants and they were getting along well. it kinda freaked us out so we tried to walk away from him. but guess wad, after 20mins we somhow met again and this time he brought us into more tunnels, and in there it was total darkness we couldnt see a thing. n it was realli doggy that eventho it was so dark he could actualli tell us all the directions in the place, like where to turn when to turn. then after a very long while in the tunnel we tried to leave and he finally agreed to leave. the place was quite far away from the city so we had no choice but to hav a lift to the town. then in the town he offered to bring us to icecream house. omg he js wouldnt let us off. we said thank u and jumped off the car. thinking we must b safe already after walkin in the town for half an hour, guess wad, we met him again. and this time he offered to take us all the way home so as to save us a ride on the ferry. n he even asked for our phone number and address. we quickly ran off for our lives to the ferry. he was a stalker!!!!! so ppl, realli, don even get into a stranger's car!!!!!!!!!!


well, despite the horrifying encounter, the place was beautiful. we would have enjoyed it more if those weird things did not happen tho.



we went to the auckland musuem cos yaya said the maori performance is a must-not-miss. the musuem was exhibiting a lot about the maori history. omg they js reminded me of the kadazans in malaysia. the cultural dance, the singing, the costumes were so similar.


and look at their house!!!! exactly like those rumah panjang in sabah or sarawak! altho i havnt visited one myself lol.


i wonder why the maori like to stick out their tongues. they say it is meant to scare the enemy but seriously, whenever they did it, i just burst out laughing. nothing realli scary about a tongue sticking out rite?

thanks yaya. it was a good short stay and u had been so lovely. will be bac for more lol.

seeing australia my way (sydney)

hello sydney. so metropolitan, so crowded, so sunny. after an overnight flight and barely any sleep, i still could drag myself out to see the busy sydney.


everything was like a picture. like those pictures u see on postcards. and suddenly they are all standing right in front of u.


the very magnificient sdyney opera house. i had such a drama, such an experience with it. i got lost in the tour i joined; basically got left behind when other visitors together with the tour guide moved on to another spot in the building as i was too engrossed with my hearing guide. when i turned around, gosh i was sitting all alone in the auditorium. luckily a staff saw me n brought me back to the reception where i got my second tour (ya had to start all over again) and the receptionist was putting up a stern face telling me "dont get lost again miss". i realli think me can do all the impossibles. and hello dear jeremy, u should hav realli looked for me!!!!!


ok. u cant realli miss the harbour bridge if u see the opera house. tats wad makes sydney sdyney.



bondi beach!!!!!!!!! ok so i tot it was winter i couldnt get into the water anyway so i was all armed with boots and jackets as i left the house. guess wad, it was as sunny as u can imagine, so wallyo couldnt care much and got herself a pair of pink ripcurl sandals, got rid of her legging and all jackets just to feel the water and the sand =) sydney has a funny sense about winter!



ok highlight of the trip-- THE CHOCOLATE MAN!!!!! i was wondering wad the hell this fella was doing. he was all covered with chocolate and kept on asking strangers to touch him. guess he was promoting some chocolate brand. i happily volunteered to hav a picture of cos lol.





a short visit to the nearby manly beach. it is apparently a hot spot for surfing but wad a shame it was pretty gloomy so nothing realli exciting in sight.



this was like the fun part of the trip. so i was bugging to jump on the cruise to go to the open sea to see some wild whales in action. and then jeremy being the good host agreed to keep me company. the sailing was realli a rough one. so shakey i couldnt realli stand still when we reached the open sea. half the people on the cruise were puking (ok not a good scene it made me a bit sick looking at them too especially when i just finished a whole big meal of McDonalds). but then the whales were adorable =) it was worth all the mess. and poor jeremy puked sooooooooooooo much. heyy jer u know being a good gal like me i wont post any pics of u being sick in the cruise (well u made good breakfast so i will spare u this time wakakakka).

thanks for everything. sydney was amazing =)