i am so tired.
things have been goin a bit wrong.
i keep tellin myself. the beauty of all shit coming together is- things can only go better now.
i am hoping i have not collapsed myself before the silver lining comes looking for me.
expectations are heavy. i am trying to hold the weight.
somone tells me "only if u feel the shit now u can see how great u have been when things come true". maybe.
somone else tells me. "ai ling don u dare stop laughing and having fun. ur laughters are the best in u"
n somone who has cared so much about me told me he dreamt i had a realli bad time. tat i wasnt happy. and he was worried about me. how unbelievable dreams can b. wadever it is. ai ling wanna tel u, ai ling has grown up. ai ling is stronger now. don worry about me. you are always a great man. a great shelter. a great everything.
and i believe laughters maybe is the best thing in me.
i wil stil smile no matter wad shit comes.
u deserve to be happy. luck will come bac one day.
